My name. Some say that a name shapes the soul. Well if they are right, I wonder what my name has done to shape mine?
My name. I have so many that I tell others, but only one is truly mine. Is it Dirk, Cole, Cameron, Mike, Tony, Jason, Roy, or Dart? There are so many others that I don’t even know who I am anymore. Even so I have never forgotten the name my mother gave me.
D’Artagnan Jaques Demont le Roi Deveroix.
Yeah, it’s a long one. And I would describe myself more like “white trash” than French. My mother was French I think. I don’t really remember. I was seven when she was shot and killed in a parking lot for the engagement ring on her finger. I’ve always wanted to meet the asshole that did it and tell him that it was a fake. But I’m sure by now that he knows that. I don’t even know if they ever found the guy.
As I pondered things worth pondering, the bus I was sitting in came to a stop. I got up from my slouch and rubbed my eyes. Had if fallen asleep? A voice sounded over the intercom, “Last stop. All passengers must disembark.”
I looked around. The bus was otherwise empty. Standing, I shuffled down the hall, still blinking sleep out of my eyes. I waved a quiet thanks at the driver who grunted, “Have a good night.” I mumbled something back.
I stepped off the bus and as it left, I sighed, rubbing the heels of my hands into my eyes. I blinked and looked around.
I had stepped on the bus at Portland, Oregon and had been transferring until I was pretty far north. I stared at the sign that read “Welcome to Canada” in English and something else that I guess could be French. I’ve heard they speak that up here. When the hell had we passed the boarder?
I have worked more jobs in more states than most, but I had never left the country before. How the hell did I get past the boarder? I don’t even have a passport.
I turned and took in my surroundings. A pit stop (you couldn’t call it a town) had a neon sign blinking the words “Inn. Room available.” I crossed the empty highway road and dug through my pockets for my wallet. I flipped it open and stared into its gaping mouth. A lonely twenty sat in the leather. I winced, but with no better idea, I walked into the inn. The bell jingled and an older woman with greying hair and a frown looked up from her paperback novel.
“Can I help you, son?”
I walked up to the counter.
“Yeah, uh. The sign outside says you have a room available?”
“You from the states?” she asked without answering my question.
“Uhhh. Yeah. I don’t really know how I got here. I mean I know how I got here, but…yeah, I have no idea where here is…”
She looked me up and down. I can guess what she saw: A young white boy with red-black hair and scars on his knuckles and face that stood out in a stark blue. Wearing jeans with more holes than would be considered stylish, a black hoodie that was worn out on the collar and hem with the ties missing and replaced with a shoelace, a tan jeans jacket over it that had paint stains amongst dirt and who knows what else and converse shoes that had seen much better days. They were wrapped in duct tape. I must have looked like I spent most of my nights in a gutter.
I felt a blush crawl its way across my face.
“I took a bus,” I mumbled.
She raised an eyebrow and said, “Rooms are fifty bucks a night.”
The blush darkened and I shoved my wallet back into my coat pocket.
“Thanks,” I said and headed for the door.
“If you don’t mind working for a place,” she called after me. I turned. She continued, “Ask for Connie, tell her Jenin sent you. She’ll put you up and give you something to eat. She owns the bar at the other side of town.”
“Thank you,” I told her and left. She went back to her book.
I stepped inside the bar. It wasn’t that bad of a place. I had worked in bars before, but they had looked much worse and had smelled of vomit, cigarettes and bad beer. This place smelled of beer and cigarettes all right, but the atmosphere was much nicer. Better music too. The patrons looked mostly to be truck drivers and they were scattered about the place. Some of the patrons talking to each other while others played pool or informal poker in the back room. Still, most sat at the bar watching the TV that displayed sport reruns, mostly football and soccer. A red-haired woman that looked on the far side of thirty with white streaks in her hair that looked like they had been done on purpose, but I could be wrong. The things that women do to their hair are beyond me. I don’t do anything to my hair, which is probably why it looks like I had escaped a tornado. I shoved impatiently at the dark chestnut bangs that always dropped into my eyes. I needed a haircut.
I walked up to the bar table and shoved my hands in my coat pockets. I sat on a stool.
“Are you Connie?” I asked, half yelling over the noise of the TV. The red haired woman set an empty glass down behind the counter.
“Who wants to know?” she said.
I glanced at the television.
“Jenin sent me here.” I looked back at her and said, “She told me you would put me up if I worked for you.”
Connie gave me a look.
“She said that, huh?”
I shrugged. She frowned.
“Where are you from, kid?”
I blew at a strand of hair that had fallen back across my face. It stayed put.
“Florida, originally.”
“What are you doing here?”
“Don’t know. Fell asleep on the bus in Bellingham.”
She gave me another look. I gave another shrug.
“Aren’t your parents worried?”
“Never knew them,” I muttered.
“What?”
I shook my head. She seemed to be thinking.
“Andy, take over for me,” she said to a young man that came out of the back. She gestured to me to follow her. I walked with her into the back of the bar and then out the back door. As the wood door shut behind us, it shut the off the sound of the bar. Connie turned to me.
She gave me an appraising look.
“How old are you?”
I smiled, but didn’t answer. I was too tired to think of a believable lie anyway. The ID I had on me said that I was twenty-one, but even I knew that I didn’t look the part.
“Have you ever worked in a bar?”
“Yes.”
She huffed a sigh.
“I don’t try to make a habit of taking in strays, but if you work hard, I can give you the extra room above the bar,” she paused. She looked hard at my face. I stared back. She sighed and gestured to the door. “I’ll feed you first. Can’t have my workers looking like skeletons. It wouldn’t give me a good name if they did.”
My stomach growled on cue. I blushed. Connie just shook her head and led the way to the kitchen.
Oh my Goooooood this woman could cook.
I shoveled the gravy-covered potatoes into my mouth and tried not to choke. Connie set another plate down in front of me heaped with bacon and eggs. A glass of orange juice appeared later when I had plowed through the potatoes. I drained half of it and then started on the eggs and bacon.
“Jesus, kid. When was the last time you ate?”
I gulped down an egg and wiped my mouth with a napkin before answering.
“A while ago.”
She gave me a look that said she knew it had been more than a while.
“Don’t make yourself sick. Come back into the bar when you’re done. The door will lock behind you; leave your stuff in here. You can get it later.”
I stepped outside to dump the trash bags in the waste bins back behind the bar. The gravel of the pothole littered road crunched and ground under my feet. One of the bags had ripped and a can fell into a puddle. I dumped the bag in the bin before heading back for it. I dug it out of the water and stood up, looking at it, not really paying attention to where I was going.
… to be continued.
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